5th Gear - Video

[paishodown]

[Asami has waited a few days to post this, gotten through the initial emotional shock of it. Yes, Korra is fine, and she knows that. But she's not here, anymore. And if what she's heard about going home is true, she won't remember anything about being here.

When the video turns on, she looks a little weathered. Definitely tired, as she rests against the side of a giant Arcanine. She didn't cry this morning, that's a start.]

Korra's gone home.

[Asami pauses. She hasn't really thought out the post any further than that. Taking about this is more difficult than just stewing and processing.]

Just... thought her friends would like to know. If you ended up with any of her Pokémon, could you tell me? I'd just like to know, that's all.

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[video]

[defyingfrigidity]

[... Oh no....]

Asami, I'm so sorry... [She can't imagine... having someone you loved by your side taken away so suddenly like that...] Are... are you okay...?

[Wait, no. Stupid! She's obviously not okay, why would you ask that...]

I-I mean... would you like to talk, or...?

[Private video]

[paishodown]

[Asami swaps to a private video when Elsa comes on. A preemptive measure in case she gets emotional again.

She takes a deep breath, but it already quivers now that she's safely talking to someone she trusts.]

I'll be okay, I just...

[If anyone has a grasp on how much Korra means to Asami, it's Elsa. Which is good, because finding words is difficult right now.]

You know.

[She swallows, glancing away.]

I got used to waking up next to her. Climbing into her sleeping bag when it got cold...

[Yup she's already getting emotional.]

[Private video]

[defyingfrigidity]

Being separated from someone you love, in such a sudden change of events... it's hard. I know.

[Well, their situations are different. Elsa was isolated away from her family. This... this was someone Asami gave her heart to. If anything, it's worse...but she, at the very least, has some idea of the pain Asami must be feeling.]

... It's okay to cry, Asami. [Something she never told herself until quite recently...] I won't say a word to anyone, and you know I won't think any less of you for getting out emotions that should never be bottled up for too long.

[paishodown]

I have.

[She says with a little nod, still staring blankly away from the screen.]

It's actually been a few days. I'm sorry, I just... didn't want to go on the network a complete mess.

[She's used to dealing with loss more or less alone.]

[defyingfrigidity]

I understand. Even just among friends, and people you trust... it's very difficult to let yourself be seen as vulnerable. I still have problems with that.

I know... it's not as comforting as it could be, but I suppose you can at least be certain that Korra is safe, right?

[At least, that's what she gathered from when she talked to Asami after she and Korra woke up after a period of being gone from Johto. It would be only a very minor weight taken from Asami's shoulders, but it was still something nonetheless.]

[paishodown]

That's what makes it okay, really. Objectively, nothing is wrong, and she's where she should be.

But... She's probably not going to remember any of this, unless she comes back, and I can't count on that. I've never been this close to someone, I don't know how...

[Asami forces her eyes closed when she feels tears form.]

How to really deal with that.

[defyingfrigidity]

But... the two of you got together before you came back a second time, right?

[At least, that was the impression she got when Asami first told her of the news...]

She may not remember what happened here, but... she'll know that you love her. She'll know that you two went through a lot to be together, and from what I know about her, she's not going to let anything change between you two just because there are some different experiences going on...

[Elsa tries to smile, now. She's still really unsure if this is helping or not, but... she has to try.]

I know it'll hurt, that she won't remember the things you two did together here, but... you two will still have each other when you're reunited. That's something, right?

[paishodown]

[Asami pauses a moment. That's a hard question to answer, really. The two things kind of just happened at the same time.]

Sort of. It's not that I'm worried she won't... want to be with me, anymore. It's just losing everything that happened. I know that it won't matter once I'm gone, too, but right now, I can't stop thinking about it.

I think she knew a long time before we came here, though.

[With that, a sad little smile crosses Asami's face.]

[defyingfrigidity]

... Right. Because no matter what, those memories you made here are important to you?

Even if things are happy between you two, knowing that there are events one or both of you can't remember is... difficult.

[paishodown]

Yeah. I know that it won't matter, once it's all gone, but... I guess that's getting into the nature of everything that happens here.

[defyingfrigidity]

It's sad... as much as one can enjoy things here, it's.. also very cruel, when it comes to matters like this.

[Elsa's already frowning, but her eyebrows draw close together as she mulls it over. She's changed so much here, thanks to the people she met and the things she went through... if her memories of this place were taken from her when she goes home, would all of that change go away as well...?]